I know you don’t know this, but you wake me up every night around midnight.
I guess midnight is your preferred exercise hour because I don’t notice you much during the day. Guess I’m too busy getting ready for your arrival.
Tonight was no different. I woke up to your fluttery wiggles and I checked the time. 12:14 am.
“At least, you’re punctual, little one.” I whisper. A good quality to have.
I manage to sneak us out of the bedroom and waddle quietly to the kitchen. I think you like to be fed at this time. At least, that’s what I’m telling myself. I think you agree since you wiggled again as soon as I opened the refrigerator. Spotting the rest of your dad’s lemon cheesecake, I decided to bake him another as an act of apology. I grab the cheesecake and a fork before heading to the living room.
Watching late-night cartoons was always a treat for me before you arrived. I’m sure you’ll love them when you can actually see them in person. Babies like bright colors, right? I turn on the television and the theme song to one of my favorites starts playing. You kick hard in reply. It hurt my ribs a little but I’m more amused than angry. I could see your little foot that time.
“I like this song too, pumpkin.”
I ease us onto the couch as gently as possible before breaking into our ill-gotten gains. It takes a few minutes before the cheesecake reaches you, but I can tell when it does. You wiggle and stretch, and I watch you tumble beneath my taut belly skin.
I chuckle and rub what I think is your tiny head. “You really are amazing, little one.”
Tangela Williams-Spann is a mental health and wellness blogger as well as the mother of an autistic person. Her first book, Sad, Black, and Fat: Musings From the Intersections, will be released in August 2021. She is currently completing coursework towards a MA in Special Education at Grand Canyon University. When she isn’t working, Tangela can be found reading, writing, or having serious discussions with her son about appropriate social behavior.
Many thanks to the unsplash photographers (in order of appearance): Max Saeling, Alexandru Vicol, Mustafa Omar, Mink Mingle, Ash Edmonds, Mateus Campos Felipe, Eyasu Etsub, Sincerely Media, Szabo Viktor.